I once had this dream in which I was so happy. I was so happy and everything felt great inside of me. When I woke up, I cried and cried because I hated the reality of my actual life. Thankfully, I haven't experienced that again since I left my abuser.
...I find this to be true about myself. All my problems are deep rooted and in my head. It all has to do with me, and since I'm so self destructive I have good advice on how not to be. Because I've been through it. So..if this is suppose to be an insult, it doesn't work.