21 People Who Forgot A Word And Just Made Some Shit Up- This also reminds me of what my Grandmother told me. Her father was preaching in China and got a few words mixed up. I don't know what it was meant to be but said "I've got a pig on my head"
Stages of grief take each step as they come... believe they will and do come to all not just u. Step by step u'll get through each stage in all good time.... we all have to go through it that's all we need to tell ourselves no shame in the journey so don't worry about it