Every God damn fucking day. I cry because I have a mental illness. I cry because I hate my body. I cry because I hate how I feel. I cry because I know nobody will ever notice these feelings. I cry because I feel numb. I cry because I'm scared. I cry because i've had enough of everything that life throws at me.
I feel like it killing me that nobody understands about it but they do except you don't try to show them. Sometime it just take time to get use to the thing that you want it to happen. But sometime it may just disappear before it happen.
This is the worst feeling ever when you love someone so much and you feel as if there is now distance between you when you know that there was such a connection like no other. All I can do is feel worthless and like I'm not wanted.... I feel so empty....
I hate that you are going home to him right now. I hate that he doesn't appreciate you. I hate that I ask you about us and it goes unanswered. I hate that I feel like you only talk to me when you need me to do something.
You have the nerve to call me manipulative? Really? I was willing to do anything to prove my love to you, and you went out of your way to intentionally hurt me:((..you don't walk away from someone by text message, at least normal people don't! Then you leave me with false hope for 4 months, letting me think there was a chance! You could have talked to me like an ADULT 8 months ago and I would have left you alone.