I live in the present. I don't live in past not because I hate it but because I cherished it when I was there and I don't live on future not because I'm scared of it but because I'll experience future anyways.
Then, Life is too expensive as it only instills pain, grief, regret and fear of losing others and of losing one's own life despite the negativity it inflicts. Someone once said, The only thing better than life is no life at all... That person was Buddha. I am not saying life is bad, but it does teach much negativity, so as I learn to not fear my own death as much since it is inevitable no matter how I feel about it. I have experienced and continue to experience Life, but look to peace after.
I won't be doing it to hurt you. I'm doing this out of pain and lonliness than spite. I will never be cruel to you. It will be your biggest regret if you leave me standing at the altar. I'll still be there standing when you get back but if you don't meet me there than I'll take a little detour or four. I'm well within my rights and what you did in the past was unavoidable. This however is on you and you will pay the consequences for your lack of loyalty and trust in your husband