You seemed sorta suicidal to me. Maybe not, but I felt like I felt your struggle, it wasn't an attempt to "want" you. I wanted you to know someone cared. I don't regret doing that. I've encouraged you multiple times to love her and not take her for granted. If you were just taking advantage of my kindness, well, then you were. That's on you, not on me because I was a friend to you when you needed it.
I love this beautiful painting and it's perspective of Jesus on the water .Love how you can see his bare feet on the waters surface with his sweet hand reaching down -ALWAYS. It reminds me of a poem I loved as a teenager. It was about acknowledging the hand that pulls you up.