I longed for real love and looked in places that felt safe. My reaction to the reality of it was immature. The pain was terrible and I wonder if I will forget the good that once existed. Care maybe, love not a chance.
I spend a lot of time building up people I love. If I don't then I don't like you.. it's that simple. If I don't fucking like you I won't waste energy on you, probably because you've behaved like a creep or a degenerate asshole and I'll never like you. I wish people would get this through their heads!! I can see through people and their games. Their manipulations. I know what underhanded shit they have been up to. End of!!