Took me a long, long time to come to terms with this. There are still some days I struggle with wanting to be everything for everyone, or anything for anyone. I may not be the juiciest peach, but I think I'm done apologizing for whoever or whatever I am.
Put out hate, lies and deceit and karma and or God will return it 10 fold in the most painful cruel way possible. You might get lucky and the end result turn out ok, but the journey will rip your soul out, and on purpose when what you put out is corrupt.