Listen. You are lovely. Stunning. Beautiful. You don't deserve the things that you have gone through. I never told anybody that I cut, but I did a couple times... I promised myself that I'd never do it again. And I didn't. :) You can get through this. Stay strong. Remember that you're always enough. I love you so much.
Seems like every day d/t staffing shortage and then you have those co-workers who pull this regularly and then you want to do that, but your conscious gets the better of you and you show up, but are exhausted and stressed. This is how I know that I love my job. Ironic right?!