28/01/15: There is something about people having 'feet in all camps' at the moment - hedging their best bets and cashing in when they feel like it. Mostly like I have no feelings or sensitivity and there for their benefit. This is 2015, baby. You're either in my life in full (friendship, relationship, whatever) or you're out. Half-measures of anything no longer cut it for me. #sortingmylifeout
"I keep believing this will happen someday but it never does. I am 30 years old and I still get waylaid by anxiety and depression. What has happened instead is I’ve gotten better at dealing with it. Instead of curling up in a ball and crying in bed all day I cry for maybe and hour and then I try to do SOMETHING even if it’s just the dishes. I have to accept the fact that I’m never going to not be afraid of everything, I am just going to get better at managing my fear."