This is a quote from Linda Paindexter, I thought it really nice way of describing the way we should look at mental health and your disorder, Amanda. Remember this when you feel bad about yourself or others do something to make you feel bad about your disorder. Most people are misinformed about psychosis and many other things when it comes to mental health disorders. You are a strong person Amanda, look at this whenever you feel otherwise.
'If I say, I will speak thus; behold, I should offend against the generation of thy children. When I thought to know this, it was too painful for me. Until I went into the sanctuary of God; then understood I their end.' (Psalm 73:15-17)