I have never found a better time to give up... but I cant give up...I have to show them I can be strong! I have to stay strong. I might cry myself to sleep but I will have a smile on my face the next day and maybe someday soon I will explode at just smiling and ignoring the feelings but it doesn't matter
So I've learned through the darkest & loneliest moments when this rears it's ugly head again, that you just have to let it run it's course...it's the only way out. Break down in that moment, let it out - the more you fight it, the longer it takes, you have to start all over again.Nobody can see you, so just go for it.