Yes. And right now, I crave you more than ever. I miss you so much, it's all I can think about--you are all I can think about--not like that's anything new. But I hate the long distance--sometimes I miss you so much it hurts. I love you so so very much.
It's really sad when you don't speak to someone anymore who once had a very positive impact on your life but that's now a negative thing as they're no longer there and there's nothing you can do about it. It's a really bittersweet thing to move on with life because you can't avoid it but the more I think about it the more sad it seems and I don't like it. I wish I could speak to people I don't see anymore one more time to tell them how much they meant to me
Grief, I’ve learned, is really love. It’s all the love you want to give but cannot give. The more you loved someone, the more you grieve. All of that unspent love gathers up in the corners of your eyes and in that part of your chest that gets empty and hollow feeling. The happiness of love turns to sadness when unspent. Grief is just love with no place to go. - Jamie from http://allmylooseends.com/2014/03/lights-wink/