....it never hurts less to lose someone so special. It's more difficult losing someone as an adult. I have to continue on as if everything is ok. When really all I want, is permission to fall apart for just a moment.
When I really finally realised we would not be spending forever together, all the pain of the past few years erupted out of me. A waterfall of pain that I at times was sure would not cease. There have been eruptions since but they are merely reminders of the fear I felt at losing someone I had loved so much. RH