I'll gladly let my guard down when people stop giving me reasons to keep it up.
It ain't easy letting your guard down. #I don't just open up to people because that's like giving them a piece of your heart, your unbroken heart that is, that you may or may never get back. #Tough but truth.#TGIS#Singleness is a beautiful thing. Thank God.
You've already met the one. You already made your commitment to me and to God. And no, as I said again, I'm not perfect and I am getting better every single day. And trust me, I will be the guy that is right for you and is there for you no matter what. I already am, even if you can't see it. But what I want to do is be an (almost) perfect guy. And you'll see that through my actions and commitment to you every day over this break, I swear.
I love this. This is my journey into healing right now. Up and down ! Finally recognising the roller coaster, tho. This can only mean the path will get smoother as I continue. Sometimes I'm actually pretty excited for the next chapter and fully aware it will also be mixed with some many emotional struggles. Lets hope it's all for the right people next time.
Today is such a day for me.The battle that I have been waging with the demons that my abusers planted in me, and let flower for so long, is wearing me down. Here I am, the one who wants to serve as the beacon of hope amidst the hell hole we know as child sexual abuse, faltering. Finding it hard to take another breath without searing pain in my chest. This road to healing is so hard and so long. Please know that faltering is part of the package. And I do, only what I can and that is to go…
I only agree because I have had no choice over the years... It has never been safe to lean into anyone. Those I love deeply either die, get sick of me or move away. This kind of independence- although useful to survival, is lonely and def NOT ideal for the heart.