What hurts us is cumulative. It happens over time. We absorb blow after blow, shock after shock, painful hit after hit. But even then, even if we know exactly how we got here, it doesn't mean we can fix it. You can't heal every wound, and that's okay. I have to believe it's okay. I have to believe that even if something seems like it cannot be fixed, it doesn't mean it's broken."
Trying. Hard to control the thoughts. Knowing someone may be pulling away from you and not really knowing. Seeing if they are okay without you, because if they are it's what they want maybe. Just the idea they felt like they needed that because they don't feel the sand is really hard to accept. Or that maybe they want to let go and they're just testing themself to see if it's okay. Just really really hard to accept at this moment.