Why am I so easy to reject and abandon? I've wondered this my whole life,I always feel I'm not worth the fight. So I have to be good to myself and make myself feel good. I know that God cares. If I didn't know that I probably would go insane. Some days are harder than others to keep focused that God is always there. Some days I just feel very alone in the world.
im petrified if truth be known. i cant help it, something in me is broken and im so scared.im scared of everything,everyone, what if they turn out to be just like him, what if they say they love me, and then abandon me, use all my fears and insecurities against me and wittle me down till theres nothing left. im only just clinging on, i cant tell you this, i cant even say it out loud. if i do , im admitting defeat and hes won..... even tho he already has... he wanted to destroy me....he did.