You must stop punishing yourself for something you cannot change. You must forgive yourself and show and prove to everyone including yourself that you are a better person. It's the only way to be free.
A test of love: if someone truly cares for you, they'll never put you in the line of fire. If you are only an option in their life, they'll always think what you can do for them, without regarding your own dignity, safety, or feelings. So discern with your heart, and choose carefully what you allow, or should not allow anymore in your life! ~~Angela www.calligraphybyangela.com