THE UNWANTED & NON PARTICIPANT ASSAULT OF MY BODY AGAINST MY CAPTIVE SELF. THE FORCED CONTRITION OF INTERCONNECTED MIND/BODY MODALITIES ONLY SYNONOMOUSLY RESEMBLING THE OTHER. sadomasochistic bastard body ....... I (my self) loathe you.
Being called 'lazy' is the worst part...I'm not lazy - I'm in TONS of pain! But, since I'm also the one that says she's 'fine' all the time, I guess I shouldn't expect them to understand how I feel on days when I would rather have someone chop my feet off than to have to stand/walk on them.
Fatigue & accompanying "Fibro Fog' that comes from pushing past crushing, relentless, mind-numbing pain. It's way past my level of endurance, at times. On top of that - put on the *Happy Girl Face* for everyone else's benefit. It's exhausting.
It has to be really, really bad before most of us complain about the pain. The constant, chronic pain we live with - no, we very seldom, if ever, talk about it. Compare that to a healthy person who gets some kind of pain (headache, toothache, etc.) for just a couple of days. They're quite vocal about it.