I've had my heart broke by many women but never thought it would be my mother. If the world only knew how much I have cared for you and you neglected me. Actually screw the world if you only knew and you could realize. Letting go
Knocking yourself down first takes even more courage. That's when you expose everything that has been holding you back. It leaves you vulnerable for a while, but doesn't everyone owe it to themselves to be honest about what's holding them back? yes it hurts. But nothing will ever hurt more than missing out. That is lifelong regret! Take responsibility for the belief systems you react from, some are personal to you and others are cultural and societal.